I used to be super close to Allah.
Like I was one of those people who reached that Al Nafs Al muatmamana feeling. If you know you know.. basically it’s a feeling of absolute peace and honestly it’s comes only with hard work and dedication and love and lots of knowledge. You have to constantly intentionally seek knowledge regarding the deen to reach that point in life where your only concern is that which pleases Him. Oh what a beautiful feeling. I was young and undistracted at that time . I used to attend a beneficial lecture every week about the heart. I used to attend all the conferences and seminars , I read many books. I was a student of knowledge and in return God gave me that blessing of being close to Him.
Fast forward to 10 years later and I’m just a empty soul. I live in constant anxiety and depression. I wish I can change. Maybe writing in this blog and reading my old posts will bring back those feelings. Ramadan is soon.. that’s a good thing.
