I'm tired and I'm sick first I had some crazy stomach pains and now i feel pain all over my joints, esp my knees , make duaa for the blogger , I was scared what if I fall on my way up the stairs due to the weakness? I really want to attend this noman Ali khan event tomorrow night but I am worried about going alone with my condition , the place is far , normally I wouldn't care at all that I was going alone , I been going to lectures and events alone for almost a year now because I am alone. I am alone because the people I know "moved on" as they say. I texted a few people to see if they would come along but ofcourse it was all no or no reply. No replies are the worst they make u feel empty inside , they make you wana cry . It's hurtful when no one texts or calls to say hello people only know me when they need help but alhumdAllah Allah allows me to give to others and hardly receive from others . I always find it hard to find a "shoulder to cry on" and that's when I renemeber the aya in Surat Yusuf in which Prophet Yusuf's dad says that he complains of his grief and sadness to Allah. What an amazing feeling , that when people disappoint you it is in that moment you are reminded of Allah .
oh Allah it's been so long since my heart has been at rest, I can't wait for Ramadan to remove all the stress and finally get my heart some rest, alhuma balagana Ramadan . Oh Allah it's time for me to reconnect to You and forget about the ones who have wronged me... ya Allah ya Allah !!
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