This week I attended a conference, I attended the same conference in 2012 at a local college here in my state...the words of one of the speakers stuck to me until now.
I was surprised when I found that the college used my picture for their 2014 conference YouTube video. It brought back good memories, of how sad I was that day since my friends had left me to go with one of the speakers , I had to go alone to the event, and then Dr Shade spoke about exctally how I was feeling, and he taught us that, Allah takes you away from the people to bring you closer to Allah , that sometimes being lonely is good for you, and my favorite quote I always remind myself and others of "In Allah aind alqulb al muqasreen" Allah is with the broken hearted. SubahnAllah. I actually typed the notes back in 2012, but I deleted the post.
Even though I deleted the post with my notes, his words always remain in my head when moments of sadness come through , subhanAllah!
Actually its funny because the same speaker in this conference commented about people who take notes, he said you guys will probably never look at your notes again, but he is wrong! A lot of times I use this blog to type my notes so I can look back at the notes, alhumdAllah it works.
This years conference I went alone, I didn't even bother begging friends to come along, for the past year I been going to alot of places alone, I dont wait for anyone, I don't need people breaking my heart, it hurts, but Allah taught in Surat Al Rahman that,
Everyone upon the earth will perish,
And there will remain the Face of your Lord, Owner of Majesty and Honor.
Here is what Dr Shadee this year which was again relative to my life as I seek other peoples help to help mothers and babies in need but of the 50 plus people I text or outreach to only two replied with a "inshAllah" (inshAllah is better then no reply at all!). Just replying to a text of someone seeking help is small but important even if you cant help. It honestly hurts the heart to look back at the 50 plus messages and 70 plus email recipients to see that not many reply. Why does it hurt? Its not like I am the one who needs the help right? It hurts because what if the babies and mothers in need knew that of the over 100 people we outreached to only a few replied? What if they knew that you promised me to help but you never followed up and when I actually followed up you stopped replying? JakzAllah to all who replied, I make dua for people like you because people like you keep me hopeful, and when you make people hopeful, you remind then of Allah, you remind them of how none but Allah Provides, you remind them of Allahs Mercy.
I don't care if you don't reply to me , but I cant imagine how many disappointments these people went through along the way of seeking help if I got disappointed because people don't even reply texts (even though when you are with half of these people they just seem to be so attached to their phones to the point where they cant even have a conversation with you!ew).
Allah put us in the way of these people so that we don't disappoint them. Im telling you I never felt like a begger or needy until this month and it is one of the most humiliating, most disappointing situations subhanAllah. Allah teaches us the best of lessons through these experiences, but for sure they are painful to the heart.
Here is what Dr Shade said at the 2014 conference about "The Giver" .
Some of Allahs giving is guaranteed, it is already written down. Worry not about what was given to you but rather worry about if what we were given was blessed or cursed.
Giving to others is a blessing
There are two types of rizkik (providing) and both require us to do our parts, al asabab
physical stuff (money,wealth, etc)
Eman (spiritual)
Allah put a veil on rizik so you can get up and do your part
Every physical giving is a sign of a test or a curse
A sign that Allah is pleased with you is the gift that you don't care about this dunya, you want spiritual gifts, increase in eman.
When Allah gives you , you exhaust yourself in the servitude of others
( money, helping people, smiling, etc)
Real charity is to get up and look how can I share this blessing (love this !)
Make duaa before Fajr Allah accepts that duaa
Allah never turns away the duaa made at the Masjid. Be of the people of the Masjid. Allah is going to honor His Guests at the Masjid.
How do you grow your blessings ? Giving it to others!
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