25th & 27th Nights of Ramadan Stories, 1 Night Left

 

Just got back from the 27th night of Ramadan and here is what I learned:

 

"Seclusion is easy while company has its tests"

 

AlhumdAllah my family allowed me to spend the 25th and the 27th night at the masjid for itkaf....there was a huge difference between the two nights.

 

On the night of the 25th there were probably no more then 30 people who stayed, but ofcourse on the 27th people you never see come and the masjid was over crowded and loud. It was like a party, but  the 25th night was much more quiet and peaceful.

 

I learned that there are lots of tests when you are with hundreds of people vs less then 50. I have a couple of stories, such as people pushing you to take your seat, rude people who don't thank you but instead embarrass you, people who don't clean up after suhoor, but I also have the good stories such as the beautiful people you meet in Ramadan, the ones you cry with during the long witr duaaas, the ones who save your seat,  the ones you only see in Ramadan but you see that light upon their hearts.

 

 

 SubhanAllah I was a little upset on the night of the 27th due to the negative people I had to deal with but the morning following the 27th I did not feel good, I felt like I had lost a lot because of my dealings, but then I would reflect upon the truly peaceful soul feeling I would get during the longggg beautifulllllll qiyam prayers and it would make up for everything.

 

After Duhr prayer, I randomly read the following from my masjids calendar at home. After my negative experience with the people, and my low feeling of nothing being accomplished  I really needed to read this! It says:

 

" And not equal are the good deed and the bad. Repel  evil  with a deed that is better; and thereupon the one whom between you and him is enmity  will become  as though he was a devoted friend"

Surat Fussialt , aya 34

 

Tafsir of this ayah from Ibn Abas:

 

Allah commanded the believers with patience at the time of anger, and withholding at ignorance, and forgiveness at the negative, and if the believer does this, Allah will protect the believer from the shytan.

 

 

 

 

I reflected back to the 25th night, and then I thought to myself I still have another chance, and that I should not lose hope as Ramadan has not yet ended. I cannot wait for the final duaa for the completing of the Quran, I know it is going to be a very hard as once again I must let go of Ramadan and wait for its return inshAllah.....